{"id":1308,"date":"2010-05-04T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2010-05-04T01:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/gingiber.com\/exhale-2\/"},"modified":"2010-05-04T01:00:00","modified_gmt":"2010-05-04T01:00:00","slug":"exhale-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/?p=1308","title":{"rendered":"exhale"},"content":{"rendered":"<div>\n<div><a href=\"http:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/_QUKI7v2vaF0\/S99qijt--bI\/AAAAAAAABQk\/dI8gOUvFUTc\/s1600\/4245160011_85667c2121_large.jpg\" imageanchor=\"1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" border=\"0\" height=\"267\" src=\"http:\/\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/_QUKI7v2vaF0\/S99qijt--bI\/AAAAAAAABQk\/dI8gOUvFUTc\/s400\/4245160011_85667c2121_large.jpg\" width=\"400\"><\/a><\/div>\n<div><a href=\"http:\/\/weheartit.com\/entry\/1298168\">source <\/a><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<p>Feeling balanced today&#8230; <\/p><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I feel like I finally exhaled after years of holding my breath. My parents divorce was official this past Wednesday, after 3 long years of separation&#8230;\u00a0<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I suppose that is why I am finally breathing again. 3 years of wishing and hoping that their marriage would turn around. 3 years of being in denial that I am from a &#8220;broken home&#8221;. I actually feel like an adult now. I think that being an adult when your parents separate is, well, for lack of a better word, <b>gut-wrenching<\/b>. For quite some time, I was simply wondering&#8230;. I felt that my identity was so closely tied to my parents and their superficial happy marriage that when it ended, I was left with nothing but lies.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>That sounds harsh, but I am sure a good majority of you out there understand what I am saying. I have to believe that there was a happy time or two during their marriage. I have to believe that I am not responsible for the demise of their relationship. I have struggled with these thoughts for far too long.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>But, now I am finally breathing again. I am learning who I am, without them. I have a sweet, gentle husband, a lovely, strong-willed daughter, and a job and a home.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I have always been that person who &#8220;over-shares&#8221; about the most random aspects of my life. Sometimes I come across as, well, trivial. Sometimes I come across as inappropriate. But, anyone who actually knows me (I hope) understands that I feel things very deeply. I want to relate to people on a real level. I am a very honest person, and with that honestly comes vulnerability. And, by writing this, having a blog&#8230; I have become quite vulnerable.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Mom and Dad, if you are reading this post, please do not be offended. Be happy that I am finally healing from the nightmare that we have all endured. This is who I am, and I need to air out my feelings to move on.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Thanks for listening. Talking to an audience of strangers is therapeutic.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<p><span>-Stacie<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>source Feeling balanced today&#8230; I feel like I finally exhaled after years of holding my breath. My parents divorce was official this past Wednesday, after 3 long years of separation&#8230;\u00a0 I suppose that is why I am finally breathing again. 3 years of wishing and hoping that their marriage would turn around. 3 years of [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[39],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1308","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-family"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1308","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1308"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1308\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1308"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1308"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.gingiber.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1308"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}