March 19, 2010
this balancing act
Lunch break= blog time!
So my beloved mac book pro is sick. I had to take it to a mac specialist here in Arkansas. I really hope that they can fix it, because not all of my art and photos are backed up. I am beyond sad……..
I find that without my laptop, I feel even more isolated than usual. I have shared on here about how I really have not found a place where I belong in Arkansas. Furthermore, it has been so long since I have had to try to build new relationships, I do not know where to start. I have contemplated the possibility of making “blogging” friends, but how do I do that without coming across as needy? I read the blogs of many amazing and talented people. How do people distinguish between friendship and, well…. almost being a creepy online stalker? Am I making any sense? Most likely not.
Forgive my ramblings. I finally have access to a computer and am just putting it all out there.
Sometimes, I realize I am so inward. I like to work. I like to draw and keep creating. I feel like if I work at it hard enough, people will like my stuff and buy it. Then I can really call myself an artist.
But
it is hard to stay motivated.
Then, there is the whole working full time outside of the home while being a mommy and a wife. I do not want to be the person who puts their family on the back burner. I read this article that was mentioned on OhDeedOh recently about blogging mommas called “Honey, Don’t Bother Mommy. I’m Too Busy Building My Brand.”. God help me if I become this person.
Sorry for all of the garble. The last thing my 50 followers want to read about is my silly emotions! (Thats right, I officially have 50 blogger followers).
In summary, I need to:
1. Get a life
2. Make new friends
3. Have my mac book pro returned to me ASAP so that I can get back to business
4. Focus on my family
Thanks for reading.
Tomorrow will be a much happier post, I guarantee it!
Stacie
Oh I totally feel you. I moved out to Los Angeles on my own (the bf followed a few months later) and I was so excited to meet new people and build new friendships, but I’ve met NOBODY. Well, one friend, who’s flaky…does that even count?. It’s hard to make friends especially in a new place, and even more so when you work in an office where everyone is older than you by at least 10 years (there’s my situation right there).
Sigh….I feel your pain. And if you want a blog friend, I am so down. I won’t think of it as creepy stalkerish, because we are both in the same boat!
-Amie & Abbey Cat 🙂
I’ll be your friend; in real life, too!
My mac died a few weeks ago, I had most of the stuff backed up, but what I hadn’t I recovered using a program they recommended. Uff, hope yours gets better! I moved to Los Angeles 6 years ago, and although I have met tons of people, I still deal with those feelings of being alone sometimes. And like Amie says, most of them are flakes… I am kinda far, but you can be my friend!!